Vomit out!

It was really nice to speak your heart out and thank to my true friend for listening. I always believe that having a few true friend will help you when you are in the lowest life but I might be wrong at some point and I though it will be a double disaster like what happen to Japan. But thank god a true friend are available for me. I am always there for you guys when you needed me and I'm disappointed for not having the same treatment.

I thought the Whole situation was my fault but After speaking out my heart out and getting the feedback from a third party, is so clear that I wasn't the one to blame and although that doesn't ease my pain but increase the hatred in me. I am furiously pisses at what happen to me and my mind are stuck to projecting image. How can I shut down my brain? I don't want my brain to run on auto mode. Is there a delete button? I couldn't find the shut off button so I decided to hack the whole fucking system with drinks. Initially it worked but off cause I takes a long time for the brain to reboot early in the morning.

"Time will heal" is true but I'm finding the best option for the healing that takes the shortest time. I think I found it but not sure if the process actually work. Worth the try with nothing more to lose.