Mask on

Girls need to put on their make up early in the morning before they go to work so do I. My mask will be my make up. Hiding from reality again. I know is not the best way to do it but do I have a choice now? That's why people like to dream and living in the unrealistic world makes them happier since they can't life in a realistic world. Realistic world are hurtful and cruel to me and I forbidden myself to adapt to it now, not during my working hours.

Now I'm thinking what's my future? Dream an hope is shattered. Do I have the strength to rebuild my dream and myself? I'm shivering everyday and I have no freaking idea what I'm scare of. Is the feeling that's make me scare and shiver. I'm biting my teeth hard. Is close to lunch time now and I'm so hungry but yet I do not have appetite... I'm so confuse and so is my body system.