Movie time.

After so long if not step foot into the cinema, today I finally break the 1st step. The feeling is not the same as before. Waited for a girl who are late and only allow me 5 mins to reach the cinema. I don't like waiting for someone but today is exceptional because I understand that she need to dress up for the occasion and not to forget the strong perfume on her. I don't really care if she dress up or not because I usually go very casual to the cinema. I even told her sarcastically about her being late and the strong perfume.

As usual I got the corner seats but the different is I am not sitting at the corner seat which i usually do. Before I forget, I didn't pick the movie also this time. Anyway, the movie was alright even is not what I wanted to watch. Maybe I don't care and half of the time in the cinema, my eyes is on the screen but my mind is wandering around with the past memories. I can sense that she is leaning close to me and giving me the signals.

The feeling is totally different off course but It don't really matter to me now. I rather to have no feeling, I learn from the lesson. I could just hook on to a relationship as easy as that, but why didn't I? Why did I have to put myself in the spot that ended myself wounded. Infact I could do better if I want and I think I might. I will go all out and try to get myself as much relationship as possible. Atleast I won't be the heartbreaking one. Anyway, I no longer have the heart for anyone to break. They can no longer harm me.

I've got a date for karaoke soon and that will be my step 2 in moving on.


"When you love someone, they become part of you. That is why it hurts so much when you lose someone you love, you lose a part of yourself."