Unexpected disaster

Fucked! I never thought I will end up so bad. I'm a mess now and so is my life. It's crazy how a single doubt will have you questioning your entire relationship. It sucks to love someone and not be loved in return.lie or cheat. Why get into a relationship in the first place if you want to be with other people & be dishonest?You really did a number on me this time. This is the only situation that I've never ever thought of and get prepare for it because it has never ever cross my mind even a tiny bit. I hate myself when I think of what we could have had. Thank to you for what I am now. I will never forget the shitty moment i have to embrace every minutes now and my future.

I'm so confuse and I have no ideas what my future holds and starting to make wrong decisions and turning to the forbidden world. How could this happen to me now while all this while I was so fucking clear of every steps that I made. Working toward my dreams was so clear back then but now it was all grey. I'm sick & tired of being sick & tired. I told myself to stand up and rebuild everything but I might not have the strength but I will still work myself up because I know that's no point of me struggling here. Don't be mad at me for being honest.

I'm a better person with a stronger heart than ever. Thanks for breaking me so I can continue making me.