Im scared.

Enjoying my vacation here to the max and is only the 1st day. Drinking for more than 12 hours non stop is so fucking awesome but I don't know why am I still missing her so much. My mind is all about her. I really feel like try to win her back one more time but I'm scare for another rejection from her. The 1st rejection is still very fresh on my heart now. I do not have the faith and courage to do it. I don't know why my feeling for her still so strong within me.