Another fucked up weekend.

Why the fuck did I cry St a bar now by sitting here alone having a few pints of stout? I really can't control my feeling towards her and him. I'm just so fucked up. I know is all over and for him, I can't take it that's he's living me for the weekends. Wtf should I do? I only know going to get drunk every minutes. What's happening to me? Can I just crash and die. Isn't this easier for me ?