Failure.

I just hate it when I'm drunk every other days. Why am I so emo and yet, I'm no longer young to do all this. Fuck it. So fucking pissed about everything about myself. Why I can't just love a normal life as the day I'm with her? Fuck me. I must Pull myself together now. I tried but yet failed miserably.

Those who has not seen me for a while says I put off a lot of weight. I'm feeling the skinniness on me already. I did try to build up again but that also I fail. What else I'm not fail in?