I just wanna get out.

I'm getting drunk all by myself with my vodka. Why is my life is getting miserable day by day. What the fuck is happening? What is life? What is happiness? What do I need to do just to get through my life without feeling miserable ? Why can't I just be a normal person as the rest of the people in this world. Is that just so hard to achieve the simplest of life? Maybe I'm just not normal. If only I just could run away from here and not looking back I would do it right now. But I can't. Maybe one day when I just don't give a fuck anymore. One fine day when I can't tolerate anymore.