Hell Break Lose On Halloween Night

I don't know why this year I have the strong urge to celebrate Halloween and I do really mean celebration in the full manner. Pagen saw my shout out and starts to question me on the celebration. At the very early stage, I thought it was me, Pagen and Emily will be doing the make up but surprisingly on that day itself everyone show up with the make up accessories.

I only have a week to prepare my theme for Halloween and by searching everywhere for the perfect items, is never easy in Malaysia. I wanted to dress up as THE RIPPER but the robe was the hardest to find. I did found the robe from one of the costume rental shop in Hartamas but it was not for sales. I don't like the idea of renting the costume, when I party anything will happen and I don't want to pay a penalty fine for damaging the costume. On the Eve itself, I fall sick and I still haven't had any idea what I should dress up as for the Halloween. Till that day itself, I was still sick. I have the greatest idea of being a zombie butcher. Is quite easy to dressing up as that character. All I need is just get an apron and paint it all with blood and also a chopping knife as the accessories will work fine. As for my make up, I remember one of the Marilyn Manson concerts where the dancer has a cool make up on. I goggle's the photo of the dancing girl and there is it. My Halloween make up, Mobscene+Corpse ( I was abit worry about my skill on make up)

When to Pagen house for the make up session, most of everyone turn up at her house to put on the make up. I felt that everyone of us are worries about the result of the make up because is our 1st time. The girl is still ok because they are used to make up but not the guys. It was fun when everyone was busy splashing the colours onto their face, is kind of funny yet scary. Everyone was done and march to Oblique. In the club we are the most outstanding Halloween creature there, I choose to go Oblique is that I assume the Gays club will be the most happening club for this day itself where alot of people will dress up for the occasion to compare with the usual straight clubs. I guess I was not totally correct about that, atleast there are free make up in the club for those who want to fit in to the Halloween celebration. At the end of the night, there are nominated 8 best dresses to stand a change in winning some prizes. Five out of eight nominations goes to us; my group won 2nd runner up and grand prize for the best dress of the night. If you look at the photo, the 2nd runner up is a half naked guy with white angel wings on this back. I guess he have the most friend and supporter in the club. Anyway, it was all for the fun of the celebration.

Without removing the make up, we were having LOK LOK on the street where everyone walk pass will look. Then we when to Pudu for porridge where you know at 3ish am is bloody pack and we were sitting down nicely enjoying our meal with the make up still on our face. It was kind of crazy but I don't give a fuck anyway.

Came home and my face is so tired with the make up, I took a good bath cleaning every inch of my body and head to bed. I try to sleep but I just couldn't shut my eyes and that very moment some depression hits me hard. That very moment I really feel like suicidal because I felt so depressed, lonely, unworthy, lifeless and cold. I really felt like go to the kitchen and grab a knife just slit my fucking throat and my life away. I don't know why this feeling consume me or maybe is Halloween. Happy Halloween everyone.