There is no more careline.

Today I wont be able to drink because I just hurt my spine during my workout. That's the problem if you skip gym too long. Is so fucking pain now. Last time when I injured myself I always got someone to call to. I would share any happiness or sadness with. Now, is only myself i have to share all this. My pain and my sadness is kept within me.

Tomorrow there's a manhunt event that I was asked to attend. I've been to this event for the past few years with her and this year I still deciding if I should go. Why do I share so many beautiful memories of us in the past. Every single little thing Is related to her. I really wish if there's a delete button just to wipe all this memories of my brain. This memories is part of the reason that making me suffer everyday too. I really hope that all this memories will be hidden off me and will never surface again.

I haven't been shaving for the past few weeks. Today since i'm quite sober and can't drink, I decided to shave finally.