Uncomfortable event

Ok.. done with the mask but still can't take it down now. The crucial moment has arrive for me to decide whether to go for the event. I'm guessing I should go even if with the possibility of seeing her. I really don't know what will happen but I'm willing to take the risk, I might be happy if it happen and yet very painful. I'm scare and confuse now. What the worst could happen since the worst has happen to me. The most is run home crying. Is better for me not to think so much now and let the fate decide. Wish myself luck.