Not ready yet.

Getting to a relationship to me now is like getting into a war zone. Every single times I feel my life in danger. Is not comfortable at all. I just throw my temper to a girl just now on a small things because it irritate me also her strong perfume. Intact, I'm forcing myself to get into a relationship now. Is so wrong that's why I decided to cut the string to this. I really are not ready to get into a relationship, Once you have been hurt, you're so scared to get attached again, you have a fear that every person is going to break your heart even I no longer have the heart to be break.

How come people could able to get into another relationship in a short time? Don't they feel anything? My rational to this is with 2 possibilities.

1) there's no longer the feeling of love to hold them down or the current relationship is greater than the old one.

2) They are player.

Atleast this proven I'm not a player as what people always think of me.

This also starts me thinking if i'm a good boyfriend? I thought by doing everything that do not hurt the partners and taking care of them whenever they need me will be good enough which I did but yet why do I still end up like this? Am I a good boyfriend to be? Is it me or is it not me? I'm confused now.