The late answer

There is a words that I never knew the meaning for so many years finally today out of the sudden the answer appear in my heart. The words that has keep me thinking was the words of "Settle Down". I always never knew the meaning all this years and it has keep me thinking for a reason to settle down. Today, the meaning to it has appear in me with a very bright and clear answer. I feel it and some of you may say is a good thing that you realize it now. I must agree it was kind of good by understanding the meaning of life but the answer came to late to me. I'm not bragging about it now to my emo shit but I understand clearly for a person to settle down, there is a few symptoms. The symptoms was the person is too lazy to start a new relationship and he is happy with the existing one. He do not wish to change the lifestyle of the current relationship and are too comfortable of being in the same spot. I felt exactly the same but is just i never realize it until now. Isn't that too late now for me? If only the answer has shown earlier I will be very happy now isn't it? Oh yes, I miss the boat and no way the same boat will return for me. Now what I reckon myself to do is to wait patiently for the next boat and hopefully the the next boat are better than the previous one or else, I'll be waiting at the dock alone.

The past memories now are slowly fading on me. All the good memories which I manage to let it slip away day by day and little by little which is good but the only memory that are still very clear in me is how I was rejected with disappointment. Every single words of the rejections is still sitting strongly in me which I think it will never vanish.

How ironic. Just got a spam mail from her.