Let's blow my mind.

Tonight i am sober and not under the influence of alcohol. Laying on the bed and my mind is operating like the fastest computer in the world now. I don't want this to happen to me now and it took me so much of hard work for me to slow down my brain day by day. I don't want all my effort to fail me now. I'm putting on my headphone and try to switch my mind to the hardcore music. I feel like taking drug now. Should have taken from my friend the other day when he offer me and keep in with me just incase of emergency like now. Lets make some calls and see if miracle will happen tonight with the feeling of outer this world. "Grim smile"