A puppet or a laughing stoke?

I'm drunk again. Fucking drunk. Killing myself with the alcohol. Fuck me. Hahahhaha. I'm loving it. Fuck you world and fuck my life. I'm just asking for a simple life, is that do hard to wish for? God, you rely did a number on me. When will you rest. Am I a puppet to you now? Or am I a slave to you with all the punishment that's never end. I did not do wrong. Is. Never my fault and why the fuck i have to pay for it? Tell me you fucker. Hahahaha. I'm js a laughing stoke to you am I'm laughing to myself now. If I'm dead tonight, who will be crying and who will be laughing tomorrow?