Simple life.

This has keep me thinking a week. I asked myself what I want and the answer is quite simple. I want a normal life. What's holding me back from this dream? I found out is the normal life I used to have from her but it was ruin by her. That's has destroy my dream and dare not to pursuit further to my dream. I was thrown away of my dream by the incident and with no confident anymore. So should I still work towards my dream now? I lost confident and how am I to achieve it now ? I simple life is never to hard to ask infact is too easy for anyone to achieve but not me. I was belittle by my past and dare not take another dteps to it. How can I move on? I don't know, every morning I wake up to hoping that's miracle and hoping there is a day I really wake up from everything.