Excess baggage of sorrows.

I don't know why but when I'm drunk I missed her alot. Maybe is she always take care of me and I miss that. Or maybe is I needed her more everytime no matter if I'm drunk or sober. God! Help me get over it. It has been to long. How long do you want me to carry this sorrows behind my back? I wish I could put this weight down. I really wish hard.