Wake up

Last night was gone. Totally gone. I called for help but no rescue was launch but thank god I manage to get home in one piece. Today I woke up realize that I do not have any friend now and it makes me start thinking about everything. I feels like I do not have a life now, No direction and no goal. I'm like waiting for miracle to happens everyday. It hurts me alot when I did a rescue shout out but no one reply. I always though I have alot of friends but now I know I do not have a single friend. I promise myself to drink moderate and not to consume like there is no tomorrow. I can't go on like this. It has been too long. I must pull myself up before it got worst. Well I mean it has gone worst and I never imagine myself at this position. All because of one girl or one bad relationship. I can't go on like this and putting myself in danger everyday. Is not worth it I know but I just can control. I wish I have the strength but I do not. I will work out the strength little by little now. I wish I could achieve that. Speaks of my wake up call, I'm now at a pub drinking. LOL. How weak i am. Is not going to be a heavy night. I promise myself. I have to wake up after about a year of sleeping now. The sorrows within me will be bury little by little but I will try.