Aftermath is still in play.

Omfg! With a friend now when he is quarreling with his gf about being insecure and secondary makes me sick. In an relationship with one individual with a past with emotional feelings is hard. You don't randomly make an issue out of nothing. This woman's just dont understand do they? When you decided to engage with someone, you don't start being emo on and off as you wish. You know from day 1 that you decided to go with him, you have to be sure that you understand him and try to embrace it. Not throwing a fit about it on and off. Gosh ! Can you girls make up your effing mind? Is not our fault when we didn't do anything at all to hurt you but your imagination is too creative. Sorry we are not god, we can't control your mind but we try our best to stop your creativity.

In a way,, I'm sad to remind myself about her. At first, I thought she understand me and I do truly appreciate her. But very unfortunate, she did not understand me and decided to let me go. I feeling I lost my years with her especially when I have really high hope on us. I dare not commit myself in a relationship now because of her. Fml, I'm just fucked.