I'm just fucked up

Is ok and I'm ok drunk is never an issue for me cause I'm just too used to it. What's the best remedy to my fucked up life? Alcohol is the only substance for me with abit of drugs. I don't know how am I going to get through life. I just don't understand why it has been more than a year and I'm still being miserable. Maybe I'm just fucked up. I'm just another drunkard with no life and no one cares.