Sick monster unleash.

Age has been catching up too me so fast and it just hit me without me knowing it until now. I never stop challenging anything in my life but I must admit age is the only thing I will lose drastically. Last week in trying to live my life like a rockstar which I've not been living for years ago. Heavy long hours alcohol and drugs is heaven treatment. I'm slightly regret it now and I'm now suffering from the rockstar moment of last week with I could now feel all the poison in my body is dying to unleash. I'm falling sick and feeling major sickness will hit me soon. I'm quite worried now to be honest. I always wonder what fate has gotten for me to depart from this world. Would I be taken out by the ripper by sickness, accident or drugs and suicidal.