The end is the beginning.

21.12.12 is predicted that the world will comes to an end but nothing happens when the click strikes 12. So what's now for us? I'm just waiting for everything to wipe out but was disappointed that all this Is just a hoax. Life wasn't just so simple indeed when you just can't wait for miracle to happens and just waiting for the sky to fall upon you crashing your head hard just to knock all the memory out. So if today is not the end, will this be the beginning ? The beginning of what? The beginning of a new life or a beginning of the pain all over again ? It may be the beginning of the retaliation. Let's see what's happen next.

During my illness moment laying on my bed for 3 days, I felt too depressed experiencing the moment of loneliness. My mind starts thinking about my last breath at that moment and who will be there for me? Finally he came and visit me, I was so happy to see him. The whole day I was looking at him and admiring his look. I saw something about him at that moment, he's all grown up now and no longer the little boy I've been carrying around. That is not just the only thing I saw from my eyes. My eyes was mutated during then and could able to see things crystal clear and future too. Alot of them are getting older and they are no longer so strong. Especially his mom looks older now which I never notice all this years but thought we are not together, she is still the mother of my child.

At this point, I really need to let to whatever I've been holding on and is not working out good for me. Is really time to let go and start my own journey now. I know I've been saying this a few times but is not my fault that I do not have the strength to let it go. NOW! Is really the time to let go and let all the memory fades I would like to enjoy my life with happiness too and I may not have alot of time. Maybe I should appreciate on what is best for me rather than what I want.

"the more you owned is more you lose. A True love is enough or let go is the only answer of love"