Pay off

Finally the late night drinking pays off. Has been in bed more than 2 days shivering under the blanket with twice the failure to visit the doctor. I'm do reckless and can't move any single part of my muscle but I still have to cook for myself. No one will notice or ask if I'm sick even when I'm in the room for several days. Now I only can rely on the med that has been in my cabinet since don't know when. I haven't been taking a single puff of ciggie for the past 2 days and I'm still deciding if I should continue. I know for sure I won't able to quit smoking and drinking. The only way of me succeeding is when I no longer with a broken heart.