Alcohol & drugs.

Why do a person influence by excessive alcohol and drugs ? This people are mainly in their misery state of life. Everyone knows this substance is unhealthy for health but why yet they still involve in it. The result of this substance which is the rush in the brain that put them off from their I denial dilemma. A percentage group of people are embracing it for the different motive which is to achieve the feeling of joy. All this is not a problem solver but it could only helps the brain to hide from the problem during the moment and yet we will still need to wake up and face the problem. But what we love about intoxicated is the moment of denial and paralyze ourself for the moment so that our brain is not infunction to bother our emotion. Cigarette are as harmful as the rest but just is the mildest drug that's legal and yet we can't quit.

I stopped taking drugs for more than 4 years and I know I can do it even if I starts again but is there a reason for me to stop now? I used to have a reason but I guess I do not have it anymore in me. I always tell myself I can stop drinking too. It everyday I will end up drunk just because I do not want to be sober. I do not want my brain to be in full service because there is nothing but just misery. I never once trying to quit smoking because I know I do not have the reason to quit and surely I will end up lighting another stick. I dare not even try to quit. But my age is catching up and I no longer fit to be as healthy as a young chap. In my mind, I always have this feeling that i may die young and is all about my smoking, drinking and drugs. Sometime I'll be all shaken up when I think about it but yet that doesn't give me the reason to stop. Why? I guess the I'm more afraid of misery and dilemma than dying. If one day my heart just stop beating with. I warning, that will be the ending story of my life without a goodbye.